Brick walls taught me to fly... Oh shoots that was Cannonball right?11:56 PM
"Brick walls are there for reason. And once you get over them-- even if someone has practically had to throw you over-- it can be helpful to others to tell them how you did it. " - Randy Pausch
Maybe it was meant that I have to read The Last Lecture of Randy Pausch during the summer break. The "brick walls" quote was the first thing that came to my mind when I have learned my prof line-ups in my 7th semester in Law school. The anxiety I have felt during the summer break really comes to life. I don't know if this is a curse but next time I will not think of the worst because I'm always the casualty of my 'annoying' thoughts. Anyway, I was given a very high brick walls to climb on for this semester. The good news is I am still a bedan student, the bad news is, I don't know for how long. But since I am removing the 'negatrons' in my system, I am assuming that I will be able to finish this semester alive and kicking.
I will convince myself that this is the 'test' for me if I really love what I'm doing. Truthfully, I was having second thoughts of pursuing my dream of becoming a lawyer. I was so distracted last year with all the hullabaloos in my life, but I was still lucky since I have met the QPI of San Beda without failing any subjects and without any conditions. But for this year, I was awaken from a very long sleep by an electric shock, which stoned me for so many days now. I was going up and down, side by side, nauseated with the reality that I'm about to face.
Maybe this was a blessing in disguise, I know God will not give this if I will not be able to overcome this. Ok, I know that. Still. I'm a bit worried. #bipolarmodeactivated #unleashedthegolluminside
But.. but.. but.. I have a lot of 'buts' But I guess I have no excuse, I need to do this, I have spent all of my hard-earned salary just to pursue this dream. These obstacles reminded me of why I wanted to become a lawyer. Cliche as it may sound but I really hope to address the injustice or at least to make the playing field in the court on equal footing for the oppressed and the marginalized.
I might be in hiatus for the next six months which I hope I can endure and pull-off (Friends don't tempt me please!). Anyway, I just dropped-by to my blog, I will try my best to update you. For now, I still have 38 provisions to memorize in verbatim, a hundred pages of readings and tons of cases to digest and comprehend, all needed to be accomplished over the weekend, plus deadlines to my workload WOAH! #slashwristhere
While facing these huge tasks, I will just cling to Prof. Randy Pausch saying that " The brick walls are there for reasons. They're not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something" I badly want to become a hotshot lawyer therefore I really need to climb the brick walls, and I am gearing myself upwards right now. I just hope that I will rise with my sanity intact. #cueofChristianBaleclimbingthewallinthedarkknightrises.
Bye for now. Xiao!